Life is full of them.
Our life is full of several trails right now. We currently don't have enough money in our bank account to pay all of our bills before the next pay day. We are STILL waiting to hear back from 9 medical schools. Zach is applying to all sorts of jobs but none are sticking. We still have our small apartment that I have no clue how we are going to fit two kids in but I also don't know how we can afford another. Zach is finishing fire school which takes him away from us even more then work does. Things are just a little up in the air and crazy at the moment. We have one car which makes things rough. We are stuck at home often.
Aunt Lindsay announced her pregnancy on Sunday. Which means she is off of her crazy medication during the pregnancy. This also means we are all on high alert as she tends to be a bit more "explosive" during these times.
I don't want this post to sound like a "why me?" and "life is so hard" post. It is just to let you know what sort of things are going on in our life right now.
Despite all that is going on. I am thankful. I am thankful for my home. I am thankful for my husbands job. I am thankful for the opportunity to grow our family. I am thankful for a healthy pregnancy, even thought it has not been as easy. I am thankful for our trials because they remind us to have gratitude for the things we do have. Its like the saying " with out rain you would never appreciate a rainbow". Without the trials in our life we can not truly appreciate the good days. Trials allow us to become closer to our Heavenly Father and to our families as we work through these things. Of course, life is full of choices and this is one of them. We can choose to become depressed, feel lonely, and upset with our trials-- or we can choose to rely on our Heavenly Father and his plan for us. We can seek comfort and guidance from Him. We can be happy for the things we have. Trials make us stronger, there is a reason for every one of them, and they won't last forever.
When in doubt, choose to be happy my darling babies. You will never regret it.
Confessions of a first time mom. If pregnancy and children came with an instruction manual these are the things that I wish would be included...
Thursday, January 15, 2015
Tuesday, January 6, 2015
Let's Hear It For The Boy!
Baby BOY Lyman! Can't wait!
We found out our new bundle is going to be a boy! I am still in shock. I never thought God would see me as a "boy mom" I don't know the first thing about boys! I'm terrified.
Daddy and I were positive you were a girl. The pregnancies have been identical other then the fact that you are so mellow and hang out pretty low in the womb. My face has completely broken out so maybe I'm just not one of those ladies who gets a pregnancy glow. Oh well
We went in for an early gender check ultrasound because I just couldn't wait a month longer. Its a really quick ultrasound, maybe 5 minutes max. We saw you profile, spine, legs, and an arm and then we saw the "money shot". I asked the tech to wait and see if I could guess it first and before she was even on the exact spot I screamed ITS A BOY! (it was obvious) and she said "yup" and then she moved the tool around a bit because she wanted to double check to make sure that wasn't the cord in the way. She got back to the spot and said "nope, I am 100% positive that's a boy". I was instantly uncontrollably crying. Again, I am so surprised because I am so emotional this pregnancy. WHAT THE HECK! Madison got upset because I was crying and so she hid and was grumpy. Once we explained that mommy was so happy she was crying, she became alright with it. So far she is ok with the idea of a little brother and no longer calls you little sister. She calls you Baby Boy because thats all she heard, I don't think she knows what a brother is.
I am so excited but so nervous at the same time. Too many emotions going on. So far we have told both parents and Mimi was the most excited. We will tell Zachs siblings on Sunday and I know Aunt Lindsay will probably be ticked that she no longer has the only boy grandchild. I'm just praying she at least fakes a smile for us.
I look forward to the friendship you will have with your sister. I pray that you two will get along and enjoy each others company. I hated my brother all growing up and I hope you have a different relationship.
Oh man. A BOY! I still can't get over it. We love you already little guy. Can't wait to see what you will look like.
We found out our new bundle is going to be a boy! I am still in shock. I never thought God would see me as a "boy mom" I don't know the first thing about boys! I'm terrified.
Daddy and I were positive you were a girl. The pregnancies have been identical other then the fact that you are so mellow and hang out pretty low in the womb. My face has completely broken out so maybe I'm just not one of those ladies who gets a pregnancy glow. Oh well
We went in for an early gender check ultrasound because I just couldn't wait a month longer. Its a really quick ultrasound, maybe 5 minutes max. We saw you profile, spine, legs, and an arm and then we saw the "money shot". I asked the tech to wait and see if I could guess it first and before she was even on the exact spot I screamed ITS A BOY! (it was obvious) and she said "yup" and then she moved the tool around a bit because she wanted to double check to make sure that wasn't the cord in the way. She got back to the spot and said "nope, I am 100% positive that's a boy". I was instantly uncontrollably crying. Again, I am so surprised because I am so emotional this pregnancy. WHAT THE HECK! Madison got upset because I was crying and so she hid and was grumpy. Once we explained that mommy was so happy she was crying, she became alright with it. So far she is ok with the idea of a little brother and no longer calls you little sister. She calls you Baby Boy because thats all she heard, I don't think she knows what a brother is.
I am so excited but so nervous at the same time. Too many emotions going on. So far we have told both parents and Mimi was the most excited. We will tell Zachs siblings on Sunday and I know Aunt Lindsay will probably be ticked that she no longer has the only boy grandchild. I'm just praying she at least fakes a smile for us.
I look forward to the friendship you will have with your sister. I pray that you two will get along and enjoy each others company. I hated my brother all growing up and I hope you have a different relationship.
Oh man. A BOY! I still can't get over it. We love you already little guy. Can't wait to see what you will look like.
Monday, January 5, 2015
Bye Bye Beeda
At 27 months, Santa took away the beeda (binkie) almost two weeks ago. It was hard the first night but has since been easy. I think it worked out so well because of how much my two year old understands things. For two weeks before Christmas, we talked about how on Christmas Eve, we would leave Santa cookies and our beedas under the tree and he would leave presents in return.
When the time came you were a little upset but she understood what was happening. The following days Madi occasionally asked where her beeda was or said she missed beeda but when we reminded her that Santa came and took them and left presents, you were ok and would move on. She didn't cry for it at night or anything like that. It all worked out for the best and I am so glad that we were able to get rid of it sooner then later. Madison was becoming really attached and I knew it would only get harder.
Hopefully in a couple years we will take the same approach when baby #2 is ready to get rid of binkie.
We have a few more things to accomplish before the arrival of our little sibling.
Potty train
Sleep through the night
More independent play
Organize the shared bedroom
Purchase new clothing, blankets and baby items
Get things out of storage and figure out where we will put it.
When the time came you were a little upset but she understood what was happening. The following days Madi occasionally asked where her beeda was or said she missed beeda but when we reminded her that Santa came and took them and left presents, you were ok and would move on. She didn't cry for it at night or anything like that. It all worked out for the best and I am so glad that we were able to get rid of it sooner then later. Madison was becoming really attached and I knew it would only get harder.
Hopefully in a couple years we will take the same approach when baby #2 is ready to get rid of binkie.
We have a few more things to accomplish before the arrival of our little sibling.
Potty train
Sleep through the night
More independent play
Organize the shared bedroom
Purchase new clothing, blankets and baby items
Get things out of storage and figure out where we will put it.
Sunday, January 4, 2015
Saturday, January 3, 2015
Mommy moments
Motherhood is the hardest thing I have ever done. It is a 24/7 job and even when they are not physically by me, I am thinking about them.
Sometimes it is stressful and exhausting and frustrating trying to reason with a two year old, but then God gives you a hand.
Madison was a pill to get to bed last night and I was annoyed. But then after she came in to bed with us around 3am she snuggled me, held my hand and rubbed my cheek. It's those sweet moments that make it worth it. You are reminded that YOU are their entire world and they couldn't do anything with out you. They love you just as much as you love them.
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