19 weeks

Oh little one, I have forgotten yet again to keep up with these weekly posts. I am trying my hardest but life threw a curve ball at us and I have had so much to do lately. This week you are the size of a mango. I finally have a "real bump" and people will now ask if I'm pregnant. Before they just thought I was chubby and didn't ask questions because they didn't want to offend me. I wear maternity pants. My wedding ring still fits. No stretch marks yet. I am spilling out of my tops. I get occasional mood swings, but not near as bad as I've heard of. My body is changing in so many ways. Its kind of amazing how it all happens.

The good news is that I got laid off and now get to spend all day just feeling you wiggle around. The bad news is that we really could have used the financial help of me working until you were here. In the process of moving I was working really hard, packing boxes, moving things, not sleeping and staying super busy. I was moving around so much I barely ever felt you. Once things settled you still didn't move for a couple days and I started to get worried. I would lay very still and just wait in hopes to feel you move. Now most websites will tell you that you don't even begin to feel movement until 18-22 weeks. But I swear I have been feeling you since 13 weeks. Its not a lot, and its not very often, but I would feel it. Its not like the "popping bubbles or butterflies" you hear about. You were just a almost rolling sensation, like someone took their finger and dragged it across my tummy on the inside. Very faint. Now your movements are a little more noticeable. Still don't feel real "kicks" but I can tell when you are awake.  My placenta is also in a different spot on the top instead of connected in the back like most people apparently. Which means you have a little more cushion and people on the outside can't feel you kick just yet. Dad can sometimes and I wish you could see his face light up when that happens. He already loves you so much. 

Our life is currently living out of boxes in this dumpy little house in Provo, Utah. We are making it work and enjoying the adventure we are currently on. We will only be here for a couple months, so we still aren't quite sure where you will be coming home to, but we still have a few months to figure that out.

I am well into my second trimester and feeling great. I can eat whatever sounds good and have energy for most things. The headaches have gone away for now but I think they were in part to being very stressed. Chocolate gives me major heartburn but I still eat it. So far I have only gained 5 pounds, putting me at 123lb. I told myself I would stop looking at the scale at this point, but I am just more curious then stressed about the weight. Plus I don't want to be completely shocked when they weigh me at the dr office. Our next appointment is Monday, this is the "big ultrasound". They will measure every inch of you to make sure you are growing correctly and that we are still on track with your current due date of October 1st. Maybe I will eat a candy bar before I go so I can see you wiggle around.