Life update

Zach accepted a job as a flight paramedic back in January. He has been at it for over three months. The company is called classic lifeguard. For now he is mostly doing transports but I know he is so excited for the time to come when he will have to arrive on an accident scene. He's kinda a sick kid if you think about it. He really loves his job but hates the commute to Wyoming so often. We have no plans of moving there but I know he can't commute like this forever. We bought a second car in February to help get better gas mileage. It's so strange to have two cars again because we have gone almost three and s half years as a single car family. Though I do not love having two car payments again, it's been nice how much freedom this has given us. Zach is still also teaching EMT classes through UVU as well as working at mountain point hospital in lehi. 

Madison has dropped out of preschool. Once I started teaching there it became I think too difficult on her to have me around. She constantly wanted to be in my class and didn't like to share me with others which made my job difficult. So instead of paying tuition and her never going to class, we decided it was not worth the battle and to take her out completely. Because of her birthday she won't be able to start kindergarten unto she is 6 anyways. Madi loves to help me cook any time we are in he kitchen. She also loves to watch movies and play educational games on her iPad. She is so freaking smart!! She  Turned 3 1/2 in March and has quite the addtitude. We have learned to be even more careful about things we talk about because she's like a sponge and just soakes it right up. She said her first "oh shit" moment on 3/30 when I spilled a big box of toys. Parenting fail I guess. She also enjoys watching and medical/ surgical shows. Though I try not to watch them around her because of the graphic nature, it's so hard to tear her away. She is very thoughtful and asks questions about the situation and what is going on. It amazes me. I think she has gone a little stir crazy this winter because now that it is starting to warm up she wants to be outside all day long. She loves to ride her trike and jump on the "jumpoline". She is learning so much in sunbeams and has stolen the hearts of her teachers. Its so fun to catch her randomly singing primary songs during the day or reminding us to say a prayer. Madison loves to paint with watercolors and can spell her name. She also will tell you that her big name is Madison Macroni Peso Lyman while her brothers is Braden Allen Bubba Lyman. 

Braden is currently obsessed with puppies. If you play a movie he will crawl as fast as he can to grab the phone from you. We took him to the pet store earlier this week and he went nuts! He as also started to do this really cute teasing face when he is playing with you. He will peek around a corner and once he catches your eye he smirks and hides. He's a smart one that kid. He has these deep belly laughs that just light up your day. Braden is mr independent and I believe that's my fault. Two kids keeps you busy so I am not able to hold him all the time like I did with Madison. However, he does. It seem to mind. He likes to play and get in to everything on his own. His favorite activity is to pull out everything from every cupboard he can get to. Needless to say our house is in a constant state of mess these days. He decided to stay up with me till 2am on 3/27 which was actually sort of fine since I was battling insomnia anyways. 

As for me... I'm in the process of possibly donating a kidney to my cousin Kris. We dint know if I am a match yet but we are hopeful to find out soon. Well I'm still doing the mom life. I had to quit the preschool once Zach got this job as childcare became more difficult, however I still do sub and teach a music class there each week and plan on teaching 2 days a week starting next year. Raising two crazy kiddos sometimes gets the best of me but there are no other kids I would rather have. Braden loves to sing along with me when I practice belting out ballads. Madi cooks and cleans with me. These two are my whole world and my little best friends. I need to remember to soak in these days more and appreciate every second of it. To have more patience during the day and to use every opportunity as a teaching moment. Because sadly... One day they will grow up and not want to hang out with their mom all day. Sometimes I have a hard time being a mother. When I write these updates of what is going on in my life I feel stagnant. As though my life could be summed up as "same shit, different day". It's hard to feel like you have accomplished anything at the end of the day when your house is still a mess, you yelled at your kids more often then you want to admit, you didn't make a Pinterest worthy dinner, and frankly you look like you just rolled out of your unmade bed 20 minutes before your husband got home from work. 

The bag under your eyes (I'm currently writing this at 1am, my favorite blogging hour), the wrinkles, the mommy pooch, the frizzy postpartum hair, yesterday's makeup, the chipped nail polish, and the lack of personal space and privacy I once took for granted.... They all are worth it to call these kids mine, and they love me just the way I am, hot mess and all.  So I will do the same shit every day if it means I get to wake up to my sweet babies giving me nuggles and testing my patience all day long. Because they are mine forever.